I thought it would be fun to share a little more about my ideas for my illustrations. I'm always quite reserved about that because I primarily want you to feel for yourself what an illustration evokes in you and can do for you. If you want to keep doing that, don't read on. If you're curious about my feelings, thoughts, ideas, and motivations, then definitely read on!
moreIf you've been following me for a while, or have read previous blogs, you know that I primarily draw and paint as a form of therapy. I paint what I need, or what helps me. I paint what I feel, or to explore my feelings and desires. Today, I'll take you behind the scenes of some of my illustrations!
The bird girl
We moved last fall, and now we have a beautiful garden with birds! Early spring wasn't quite the right time to enjoy the garden and spend much time outdoors, but I certainly felt the need!
I wanted to throw open the windows, let the birds in and simply enjoy the moment.
I remember painting this illustration while we had construction workers in the house installing new stairs. So much unrest around me is reflected in my work, a longing for peace, for being by myself, for a moment in my own bubble.
And that's what you see: in my own bubble, relaxed, present in the moment, and truly taking some time for myself. Just the way I like it, with tea, creativity, coziness, a blanket, and that early springtime longing!
The meeting
That moment when you suddenly find yourself face to face with wild animals remains one of my most magical moments in life. That deep connection and the feeling of being part of nature (instead of disturbing or startling animals) is something I find truly special. You guessed it, right?
The idea for this illustration came to me after experiencing such a magical moment. Not as beautiful as this one, just a deer in the field, but apparently it was inspiring enough to paint it.
Magic, tranquility, but also a different way of dealing with nature is what I feel is all contained here (partly unconsciously).
Mushroom picking
I often need to be alone; I'm a true introvert! But sometimes, like any introvert, I feel the need for connection. Sisters (which I don't have, but that sounds nice!), friends, family, or other forms of togetherness.
I also longed for some cozy togetherness here. I find it difficult to be "with others," I tend to please, and I can never be 100% myself (except with my husband, of course) due to an attachment disorder. I wish I could be completely myself, like I am here, in connection with others. Luckily, I can paint, and I really enjoy that!
PS. I often get these same feelings of connection and togetherness after reading books or watching TV shows (I'm not sure anymore, but maybe I was watching Gilmore Girls, haha).
Okay, that's it for this time. Let me know in the comments if you enjoyed reading this. Then I'll know whether I should share it again or not!
Lots of love!
Esther
ps. Of course, you can also find them in the shop ;-)
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